Theodore Lee Part 2
It’s gonna be okay
I’m really trying my best not to get too excited. One because of my asthma, I have it ever since I was a baby. Ma told me once that when I was just few months old, she could not get enough sleep because she’s worried that maybe when she wakes up, I’d be gone. I feel sorry towards her, even though I know it’s not even my fault, still I feel sorry.
Second, it’s not like it’s my first time going to school. Even in my previous one, there are days that I couldn’t go to school because talking and walking can tire me real bad. So I’d stay in the house with my mom, a little disappointed and a little sad.
“Let’s go big boy!” Papa said, taking my bag from Mama. She kissed and hugged him before she walked closer to me.
“Lunch ready. Notebooks ready. Inhaler ready. Have fun today! Theo sweetheart!” she said, looking into my eyes with her kind and loving ones. She kissed me on my forehead and hugged me tight.
I nodded and kissed her on her nose before I followed Papa towards the car.
I would have said “I will, my beautiful mama, I will. Don’t worry” but then it felt like my lungs were starting to contract. I don’t know if it was because of my asthma or because I feel like crying and staying at home with her. I’m scared.
“Are you nervous, big boy?” Papa asked. I’m usually quiet because of reasons, but I think he noticed that I’m a little off since I woke up.
I nodded and smiled a little; he took my hand and squeezed it lightly. This is our secret way of saying “it’s gonna be okay” and “I love you a lot” and right now it’s perhaps both.
We could see the school gate and the other children going in. I’m scared, but I hope that everything would be okay.